WOW. SO MUCH HAS HAPPENED.

My parents relationship is falling through cracks. I hate my mom, I must admit, and the past 2 weeks that I haven't been talking to her, my GPA went up .6, and I'm just loving life. I don't wake up in the mornings regretting everything i've ever done. My school actually blocked xanga and myspace for a while, so now, in my dorm we have xanga and myspace on like 1 computer.  don't know how but we do. so yeah. in the last few weeks, i've been chilling with a college guy. lol. like he's awesome as hell, but we'll never date or anything because of the age difference. he's from ecuador. what an amazing kid. but yesterday, I had this chick from the homeland, willmar, come chill with me at school. she's my neighbor, and I dont really get along with her. but i guess she wants to go to my school so that's cool for her.. last weekend i spent insane amount of money. i am never  doing that again lol..  but oh well. i don't do it that often. on the weekend i'm chillin with college guys so often lol . they are hella fun i must admit.. some really good songs that you should listen to are what hurts the most by the rascal flatts.

i'll write more later.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
that don't bother me.
I can take a few tears now and then
and just let them out.
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
even though going on with you gone still upsets me.
There are days every now and again
I pretend I'm ok but that's not what gets me.

What hurts the most
was being so close.
And havin so much to say
and watching you walk away.
And never knowin what could have been
and not seeing that loving you
is what I was tryin to do.

Its hard to deal with the pain of loseing you every where I go
but I'm doing it
its hard to force that smile when i see our old friends and I'm alone.
Still harder
getting up getting dressed livin with this regret but I know
if i could do it over
i would trade give away for the words that i saved in my heart that are left unspoken.

What hurts the most
was being so close.
And havin so much to say
and watching you walk away.
And never knowin what could have been
and not seeing that loveing you
is what I was tryin to do.

What hurts the most
was being so close.
And havin so much to say
and watching you walk away.
And never knowin what could have been
and not seeing that loveing you
is what I was tryin to do.

And not seeing that love in you that's what i was trying to do

Myspace is blocked.

Goodbye MySpace

Hello Xanga EVeryday

i kinda gotta get back into the swing of Xanga. I mean it's been so long since i've actually wrote a good update. i like xanga alot, but myspace is cool too. xanga helps me feel better, while myspace clears my thoughts.

So things are going surprisingly well for me. I mean, my breaks been really good. hippi and i have been on and off for ten monthes now and that's kinda cool. it's really cool. i'm happy to have someone that cares about me. haha. school's good too. I mean, some of the people just annoy the hell out of me, but most of you guys, have a good idea as to the person i am. one with a mean anger, but is pretty fun hang out with. my good buddies gettin treatment, and has been in there for too long, and I miss him alot, thats been drawing me down quite a bit. he's just not that person. everybody has a past, and everybody has something they don't like about another person. it's just the way our world works. things are awesome, i dyed my hair again, its' not all black anymore, its like a brown on top, and black on bottom. i dont really have a reason for having black hair, probs the only reason is my mom won't let me go pink.. nice eh? but yea. i'm going boarding this weekend and i'm really happy about that. it's really sweet.

music-  i'm really getting into HIM lately, i just like the sound and lyrics of it. i like the roots too. they have gotten some good songs. umm nine inch nails is in my top ten too. uhh. .i've always loved blink 182. I like senses fail too. haha. i'm really gettin into rock and emo and all that jazz. I like as cities burn too. AFI's also one you should check out. good stuff. good stuff.

There's also this kid at school who I'm worried about. the one that i went to homecoming with/ he cried because i was dancing with other guys. and we weren't even together. we never really got together either. he kinda  expected me to do all the talking/saying hi to him and all that. now that im back together with hippi, he's not even acknowledging me. it's really quite sad. i mean, i know i was the first girl in his life, and he told a friend of mine that he was getting over me, so that was good, and hippi had asked me out, so I decided it was the O.K. thing to do, i mean hippi makes me happy. he truely does, and he cares... well. not saying that his other kid didn't, but I'm saying that he didn't show me. hippi calls me at 7 in the morning just to tell me what he's wearing. its funny. i mean hes done more in two weeks, than the other kid did in 2 monthes. hippi calls me to talk about nothing *he says he just likes to hear my voice*, when the other called just to ask me how my weekends going. the other kid just would walk by me in the hallways.. without saying anything but hi.. its so sad...

well.. good update eh?

you know, i mean the best for you all.

~liz

If These Scars Could Speak-  Zao *good screamo song*

Breathe 
Come out of your stare 
Touch the ground with your prayers 
Breathe out the lies 
Breathe 
His words were sharpened hooks beneath your skin 
You left them in 
As he shone into the eyes around him 
Cradled by a cold floor Isolation shows his true motivaiton 
Her pedals are slowly torn away 
Scarlet adorns the snow 
Scarlet

UPDATE.

So, my christmas was really gooooooood. I had fun with my family.

Hippi Y Liz Para Siempre.

hehe. i love him.

call me 320-894-9326

LiZz

Updates will come at least once a week for now on!!! I promise!! my computer at the house is BUSTED, and from Dec. 16- Jan 3 NO UPDATES! I promise that once I'm back at the dorm, I'll tell you all what is going on in my CRAZY HECTIC LIFE

Merry

Christmas

Bitches

So these past few weeks have been overloading. Finals are coming closer, likewise with Christmas, while I almost done with shopping for family, I still have all of my friends to do, I'm really looking forward to new years in SP though. Fucking love my people in sun prairie. SNOWBOARING HAS BEGUN!! fucking went last weekend, and i showed up back at the dorm smiling and happy as hell. I fucking love snowboarding and my life basically depends on it. seriously, i get so mad, a fire just burns in my eyes. you can kinda see it under all the things i hold inside.. the little fire just burning. like burning away at my soul. and now that boarding starts, i dont have to feel that way. It makes me really happy. haha that was kinda sad.

but whatever, i've been decent lately. like i've been stressed as shit, and pissed as fuck, but not as much as i usually am. you people know how mad i can get... im much better than usual. so i've been myspacing like mad lately too. i pimped out my page and stuff. its really cute! haha brown is adorable.

So i have a heart now-a-days, and im curious.. with christmas coming, what does everyone want? like not from me, but from like your parents and everything.. im totally drawing a blank as to what i want, and i was hoping you crazy shits could help me out.

Haha! almost forgot to mention that i'm going home this weekend! haha me and robin are going out on friday! and then my sister kaela, my bro in law greg and my nephew marcus are coming around and we're going to celebrate christmas. almost, once again, forgot to mention the fact that i went shopping with her last weekend. boarded too but thats not what im talkin bout now. we got gifts for my parents from gap and they are all really cute. we spent 120 dollars on my parents together, *shit load of cash i know* but whatever, i have cash and im willin to spend it.

Merry Christmas To Everyone! Thanks for being my friends! *omg that sounded so gay* revision---> Thanks for being fucking amazing. i love you all!!

~Liz~ New Cell #- TIL FRIDAYYY!!! 320-894-9347 thennn once again. 320-894-9326

I NEVER WANTED IT TO END THIS WAY, CRASHING DOWN LIKE THE POURING RAIN!